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Name: infinity
Country: United States
State: California
Birthday: 2/11/1990
Gender: Female
Interests: i like music
i like art
i like staring at the sky
i like giving advice
i like writing
i like having fun
i like rollercoasters
i like the beach
i like anything that is fun
i like bunnies and snakes
i like you 2
Occupation: Other
Industry: Art
Message: message me
AIM:  gluegunbunny
MSN: GLUEGUNBUNNY
ICQ:  huh
Yahoo:  gluegunbunny
Member Since:
4/7/2004
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| So after having a nervous breakdown in the car yesterday about my grades we planned everything out (me and my mom that is). Everyone is naturally right because i am obviously wrong because you see, i stress about EVERYTHING. I truely need to stop caring about pfft everything. Though i am annoying myself because since everythings been getting good for some reason my mind always needs to try and find something/anything to just prove to me how everything is actually a lie and that nothing is that perfect. To be honest i think i should just get it over with and see a psychologist or something--it could help? Yup. Anywho well, today is the first day of me trying this applying myself thing. Right after this i'll be leaving to go do homework, bitch at my mom about getting me to school on time then bed. Everything will work out the way its meant to, no pressure. No worrying about college no nothing, im a fifteen year old girl just trying to get through high school--then i'll worry about EVERYTHING else. | | |
| It seems nearly impossible to be so lonely when your surrounded by everyone. I don't know, maybe ignorance was bliss. Although i don't know, it was nice but at the same time now i know it wasn't the best thing ever. Not sure why but i have a feeling in the bottom of my tummy of just me being alone. That's not a bad thing really, it's just well lonely. Although i am surrounded by a good life, i feel as though no one understands me. After all i am human right? This feeling will pass soon im sure, everyone has their moments of lonesome feeling of unwanted teenager. Right, well, thats all. my life is fine and im happy everythings fine. | | |
| It's another sunday, hopefully this one will be a million times better. It's funny isntead of my diary i have started recording things and hiding the tapes. Im not paranoid, but its better putting things out like that because then i'll be able to get everything out. Although i barely have anything to get out anymore. I am still in hopes for the vegan job, its undecided until tommorow. Im hoping for a job just so i can be my own me, well, you know what i mean. Not sure what todays agenda is, most probably going downtown or the beach to study all because if i am here i don't study because i am distracted WAY easily. Anywho, not sure if their is anything to report other then i am happy. Michael got my tonsils sick, it's no biggy though its just it makes my nose really stuffy.So italian starts back up again, i basically get to go their early get a crash slip. Woo friggin Whoo right? I am officially never depending on my mother completely for anything again. Lets see, erm, life good,erm..blah..thats..bout it. | | |
| yeah sundays totally suck sometimes. Although the night was really pretty, i mean the falling from the ditch thing wasn't to cool. Ah well,thats life, so yeah cory and i were suppose to go to a party then it ended up being four people. Two of which were having monkey love in the car, and the other two were just being dickish.Walking over to my boyfriends car i did get to see a mexican chick fight. That was almost to entertaining, thankfully i got to see my boyfriend which put me in a better mood. Well the mexican fight got me laughing hysterically. Like small things like that seem to, and then we got star shmucks. Afterwards returned to my warm house OH YEAH, and watched the D&Ders which is always enteraining. Go halflings being attacked by baby dragons >_<. Yeah today for whatever reason i decided to read over the LJ posts from when we were broken up. He said in one of them that i was clingy-i suppose im worried i'll be to clingy now. *shrugs* if i am he'd better let me know, i suppose i become worried that i'll become distant if not clingy. At the moment i think im in-between with bits of cling. Other then that, I just kept reading about how much he missed me the whole day i kept revising everything in my mind. I feel minorly guilty for blaming him so much, i would tell him that but i dont want the past brought up anymore just becuase its different now. At least i hope it is, i've been really-really happy, its kind of weird for me. Comfortable though, it feels good though since i dont care about my father anymore. Im not hoping for an email everytime i check it saying somethin like "we found your father and he wants to meet you". Now im content with knowing my father is here at home and loves me. Ziggy is nothing more then a sperm donor and that is that.
Jist of life= it's good, happy and mellow.
tommorow i get to hang out with my boyfriend-and mr.Amastadon. | | |
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